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Does anyone ever wonder what I do at KFC? Here's my schedule when I'm on food prep for the closing shift :D


First, I put on my plastic apron.

( seven chickens cross the road )

TODAY I WORKED TWELVE HOURS. WITH NO ACTUAL BREAK, JUST A QUICK FIVE MINUTES TO SWALLOW SOME CHICKEN WHOLE. CHEWING IS FOR THE WEAK.

I started this meme on laura♥'s journal a while ago, but never completed it in my own. For shame, I know.

01 leave a comment recommending some ~different~ fanfiction
02 i choose five of your icons, and you make a new post talking all about them
03 love on ♥

This is one of my oldest icons. I just love blonde Aiba, and his skin is nearly glowing and the colouring is slightly vintage, but not really, the word's escaping me. And then, lol, I AM A CREEPER because sometimes, you just have to let it be known.


My first Sakumoto icon, and I still only have one other one. I find it hard to get good Sakumoto icons, not gonna lie. Anyway, I just love love love that Jun is the one loving on Sho, since this took place before Jun got too coo' fo' schoo'. And he's going all out and Sho looks like he's tilting away just slightly, but he looks like he's trying to not smile, and I love that moment ♥


Sailor Moon /swoons. This is my first fandom, and, I can never shake it. I'm pretty sure this shot is from the manga, at the end of the Stars arc, where she grows her wings. I love everything about these scenes, in the manga and anime. I love that Usagi is stripped of all that she is, with no one to turn to, no weapon to draw by her side, and she has to look deep within herself to find her strongest weapon, her heart. GUH, GUSHING OVER THIS ALL OVER AGAIN.


I do, sometimes. I like how the entire icon is white, stark white. And even though overthink is written in a plain font, and the period at the end makes it something final, something concrete, the colours are swirling within the text. It reminds me of people; we're all confined to our boring, water concentrated bodies, but inside we're swarming full of ideas and emotions that no one can ever pin down.


HOW COULD I NOT USE THIS ICON. I read that Jun always eats bananas before concerts, because bananas are supposed to give you energy (I remember him eating one on stage in Scene, I think). BUT, LIKE, DUDE. HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S NAKED. AND HE'S EATING A BANANA. A BANANA.


In other news, my sleep patterns are still fucked. Even though I've stopped napping every 14 hours, now I just always end up falling asleep at 8pm~10pm and waking up at 3am~4am. I CANNOT FIX THIS SHIT. Chloe was all stay awake. do not sleep. don't. do. not. I will check up on you after practice. and, like, yeah. I fell the fuck asleep.

I read astrangestorm's Cloudbuster yesterday and, dear lord, that is one amazing story. I feel ashamed for calling it fanfiction, because it feels like it should be published. Anyhow, anyone have any other steampunk AU's they'd like to send my way?

HI FLIST /links pinkies

I LIVE. WHAT IS THIS BLASPHEMY.

But yes, I miss my flist. I feel like a failure of a friend D;



video; I'm wearing makeup, I like to rant about uni, I joined the Greenpeace, and I cannot speak Chinese. SOUND IS ALSO LACKING, GOOD LORD. I think I need to buy a new mic... again ;~;

By the way, the Chinese was for 120795, cause you said (forever and a half ago) that you wanted to hear me speak Chinese. ...tada~♥

On another note, I submitted my squickfic, and now it's posted. I'm so unhappy with my fic, I wish it would stay anonymous. BUT... it's done...? I don't know. The original plot I wanted to use kinda sorta fell apart, and I couldn't put the images in my head into words and the mood was all over the place, and my pacing my almost non-existent D;

GOOD NEWS: I have lost weight ♥ I don't really know how, cause, I haven't been working out. But I'm always eating salads, and trying my damnedest to stay away from the pizza and fries, even if it usually means I'll end up eating a whole wheat sandwich with turkey and lettuce ;___; THE UPSIDE BEING jeans that I couldn't get up over my ass almost a year ago, now fit me perfectly. And they're even a little tiny bit loose. My usual jeans are getting droopy in the back, so I shall have to go shopping relatively soon~♥

I PROCRASTINATE SCHOOLWORK LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS, AND I STILL MANAGE TO GET BITCHING GRADES. DO NOT KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENS, BUT I WILL ACCEPT IT FOR NOW.

And yes, for anyone who's been wondering, I'm loving university life here ♥

I'm bored. Those following me on twitter have heard enough of this over the past week. (those who aren't following me on twitter, HI 8D/).

I'm tired of staying inside this tiny dorm room with nowhere to go. When I try and explore, I get lost/sunburnt/rained on.

I'm requesting anything, really. Dramas, new music, film, certain fandom episodes, anything. I need something to keep me entertained. I finished Haikei Chichiue-sama today, and liked it a lot, despite the lack of an ending. My laptop has been down for two weeks and I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO FIX IT. NOT THIS TIME.

I also have an unhealthy obsession with this song. ♥.

This, my friends, is going to be image heavy. It's my ~Farewell Newfoundland ♥♥♥~ post.

GEORGE STREET, I WILL MISS GETTING BEAUTIFULLY SMASHED AND STUMBLING ALONG YOUR COBBLESTONES.


This is my city. It's the oldest city in North America (even though it was burnt down... three times o.O) and so we keep all the historical buildings we can. This is along Water Street, one of the touristy/hipstery/business streets downtown. I just, I think it's so quaint. The whole street is like this :3


We also, for an unknown reason, built about 7~8 mermaid statues a couple years ago. The one with the cow/field design was demolished. Probably because it was but ugly, lmao. But the chocolate one's still here ♥
( nine more photos c8 )


All this being said, and as much as I know I'm going to miss this city, this province... I'm ready to move. I'm sick of living in limbo; knowing I'm leaving Newfoundland soon, but knowing I'm not in Halifax yet. I just want to move there already.

Tomorrow I'm spending the day/night/next day at Jess'. Our last girl day sleepover until I fly back for my birthday in November. This is just, like, saddening. But I'm gonna bring my HanaDan DVDs so we can watch the second season (probably won't finish it but lmao whatever) and I bought cake mix tonight to make Jun a birthday cake. More like, give us an excuse to bake a cake, but still. The thought is there :3

like, wtf. what is this cosmic amount of awesome?

best friend jess works at kfc. she knows of (and fully supports/enables) my fandom tendencies. Last night during supper rush, my other best friend/co-worker Sarah was there visiting me, with her boyfriend & brother. I was chatting to them for a bit, then they'd see I was busy so they'd go back into the lobby, etc.

So I'm in the middle of an order, and

jess: tonya, you should come over here~
me: kinda busy~
jess: you're gonna wanna come over here~
me: /looks over. ...YOU. YOU GOT ME A CAKE. I WANNA SE- CRAP. I HAVE ORDERS. GIVE ME A MINUTE, I'LL BE OVER.
jess: i think you still wanna come over~
me: /starts walking over. what is it, Arashi or som- it is... OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG ARASHI ON A CAKE! ARASHI CAKE! THIS IS, OMG, YOU GUY- HOLY SHIT THEY'RE WEARING KFC HATS.

and then I bounced/jumped around for a minute or two, went back to making orders, came back to look at it some more and huggle people, then went & made more orders. It was extremely bad timing on their part but lmao in their defense, it wasn't busy when they went to get the cake :3

BEHOLD.


I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO WRITE HERE, JUST, ALSKDJFHDJKSLKDJHFJSKDJFHDJKXSDJGV!!1!!!1!!!1!!!1!

( PHOTOS, RAMBLINGS, LOVE. LOTS OF LOVE IN HERE ♥♥♥ )


twitter update: i'm home, mom transported me. back still hurts, but isn't as bad. mom gave me a muscle relaxer, i think, so i should pass out relatively soon. i plan on breathing through my nose sometime next week. muffin has yet to be finished ♥

I WENT SHOPPING TODAY. WHY, YES. YES I DID.


I bought Robyn's Body Talk CD (which I love so far) and Alexz Johnson's Voodoo album. I haven't heard any of these songs yet, but I've always liked her music, so I'm sure it'll be a good listen c:

Also got this magenta hat. Hiiiii adorable hat ♥


And I bought THIS BEAST OF A PURSE. Well, more of an owl than a beast, but still. It's massive and maybe the tiniest bit out of my $30 price range I had set for myself buuuuut it's brown and coloured and knitted. Well, knitted-esque. I love it. Adore it. Worship it.

I also made a plurk for myself. Homg. Oh, my lord. Shit is addictive. I am rainbowish hello there, make an account and add me 8D I also made a tumblr (which is rainbowsmudge) but I don't really understand it yet :|

Lately, I've had this obsession with rainbows. Outside Arashi, I am just constantly thinking about rainbows. I like the expression earthly rainbows but I don't really have a use for it.

I went to see 30 Minutes Or Less with Fufu tonight. It was pretty good, except for the last 20 minutes... There was a fly on the monitor. And, apparently, no one was looking after the film, so the bug just sat on the corner of the screen for almost half an hour. Also, the ending of that movie... wtf. Kinda sudden, ngl.

BIG BROTHER RE-AIRING IN TWENTY MINUTES. WILL BRENDON GO HOME? WILL SHELLY GO HOME? WILL RACHEL TAKE OUT HER FAKE HAIR? WILL JORDAN WIN A COMPETITION?!






I move to uni in two weeks. My teeth chatter and turn into words when I'm nervous. Hiiiiii.

I am trying to quit smoking. I am trying to quit smoking. I am trying to quit smoking.

I smoked 2 today at work, and they were the last in my pack. I don't know if I should buy another pack & try to cut back little by little, or just not buy anymore and go cold turkey.

I bought these pretty coloured lighters the other day, so it feels like I have to keep smoking, but that's not logical. I might return them to the store so I'll have no reason to feel like I have to smoke, besides the usual CRAVINGS CRAVINGS CRAAAAAVINGS.

Tomorrow is the busiest day of the week at KFC, and I'm on drive thru. Then I'm supervisor the next day. So, maybe I picked a bad time to try and quit (I tried the beginning of the fall semester last year, and lasted only a week ;_;) but.

is there ever a right time to quit smoking?

I don't want to start eating in place of smoking, but when I'm stressed I feel like I have to ~do something~. Or when I'm bored home, I'll go for a cigarette.

Maybe I should buy lollipops & have one whenever I want a smoke. Or gum. Or candies.

Maybe I should just tweet CANCER whenever I want a cigarette.


FLIST. PLEASE TELL ME HOW GOOD A DECISION IT IS TO QUIT SMOKING. I AM NOT SEEING ANY BENEFITS ATM ;_;

Last night I watched the Shiagare episode with Oizumi Yo. It was hilarious, and I kept laughing and laughing to kill myself. I'd had a rough night as supervisor again, and it really helped me unwind.

But, I can't think of what else would help me do that.

I'm grateful for as long as Arashi has helped me within these past two years, because I know I wouldn't be where I am without them, as silly as that sounds. They're tattooed on my body for a reason.

I think, that I need to step back for a while. Just focus on the physical world and experience that for a while, because. As much as I adore my boys, I need more sources for enjoyment. I'm also slumping into another bout of depression, and I want to deal with that in hopes of finding new solutions to my problems.

So, I'll be taking a hiatus from fandom, and lj, for a while. I might still be on msn every now & then, but. I want to stay off the internet for some time.

I want to read more novels. I want to discover more films and directors I've yet to see. I want to work on myself. I'll probably be dabbling on twitter, so if you want to stay in contact, this is me.

That being said, if anyone on my flist has news to tell me, or something big happens, reply to this post and fill me in.

Besides that... I'll be seeing you all later o/

Currently redownloading Love Shuffle because I started it last year but never finished it due to homg what the shit, rl. Also, Yoshitaka Yuriko's in it and I'm curious to see what her acting's like. Saw her in Noriko's Dinner Table and ate it up like maaaaaaaaaaad.

Needing more dramas. Wanting to be absorbed~.

I feel so bored, all the time. Feels like I need to be back in school, to be productive. Suppose I could just read/write/fandom more, b-but... idk. I want something to challenge me head on.

Cleaned my room tonight. Took two hours, but you can now walk on my floor HOMG WHAT IS THIS SHIT. Ended up with four grocery bags full of garbage, five cardboard boxes, an entire year of schoolwork/textbooks and a full hamper of laundry o/ WHO KNEW I COULD HIDE A SMALL VILLAGE WITHIIN THESE FOUR WALLS.



umm. going now.
/was trying to sleep but decided to ~browse~ interweb


ps: obsessed with this song, oh god
pss: super scared for SM manga to be rereleased... feel like I may splurge like hell