tonieboo0013: (潤: shout)
I finally got married to my lovely [ profile] quartered, my special, special laura♥

I made us a honeymoon playlist, as I do with everything. Just something to make you smile c:

On another note, last night was movie night. Photos?

three pikcharizards ♥ )

Today I shall do all my Chinese & Japanese homework and read more of The Crimson Labyrinth by Kishi Yusuke and (omg maybe possibly) work on [ profile] 120795's birthday fic that I started for her in... July. HARDY HAR HAR.

tonieboo0013: (嵐: party up in here)
like, wtf. what is this cosmic amount of awesome?

best friend jess works at kfc. she knows of (and fully supports/enables) my fandom tendencies. Last night during supper rush, my other best friend/co-worker Sarah was there visiting me, with her boyfriend & brother. I was chatting to them for a bit, then they'd see I was busy so they'd go back into the lobby, etc.

So I'm in the middle of an order, and

jess: tonya, you should come over here~
me: kinda busy~
jess: you're gonna wanna come over here~
jess: i think you still wanna come over~
me: /starts walking over. what is it, Arashi or som- it is... OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG ARASHI ON A CAKE! ARASHI CAKE! THIS IS, OMG, YOU GUY- HOLY SHIT THEY'RE WEARING KFC HATS.

and then I bounced/jumped around for a minute or two, went back to making orders, came back to look at it some more and huggle people, then went & made more orders. It was extremely bad timing on their part but lmao in their defense, it wasn't busy when they went to get the cake :3




twitter update: i'm home, mom transported me. back still hurts, but isn't as bad. mom gave me a muscle relaxer, i think, so i should pass out relatively soon. i plan on breathing through my nose sometime next week. muffin has yet to be finished ♥
tonieboo0013: (stock: worst mistake)
third day, handwrite your favourite quote. well, this is one of the many.

brb world, time to go get ready for my last shift at KFC. two years coming to an end tonight. (i am supervisor so i told staff to bring as many energy drinks and candies as they can manage. also, some of the staff said they'd drop by to say goodbye. i don't go out without a bang ♥)
tonieboo0013: (大野: think about it)
Last night I watched the Shiagare episode with Oizumi Yo. It was hilarious, and I kept laughing and laughing to kill myself. I'd had a rough night as supervisor again, and it really helped me unwind.

But, I can't think of what else would help me do that.

I'm grateful for as long as Arashi has helped me within these past two years, because I know I wouldn't be where I am without them, as silly as that sounds. They're tattooed on my body for a reason.

I think, that I need to step back for a while. Just focus on the physical world and experience that for a while, because. As much as I adore my boys, I need more sources for enjoyment. I'm also slumping into another bout of depression, and I want to deal with that in hopes of finding new solutions to my problems.

So, I'll be taking a hiatus from fandom, and lj, for a while. I might still be on msn every now & then, but. I want to stay off the internet for some time.

I want to read more novels. I want to discover more films and directors I've yet to see. I want to work on myself. I'll probably be dabbling on twitter, so if you want to stay in contact, this is me.

That being said, if anyone on my flist has news to tell me, or something big happens, reply to this post and fill me in.

Besides that... I'll be seeing you all later o/
tonieboo0013: (松宮: smooches)

[ profile] quartered did this, and, I figured it'd be nice to get little messages while trying to buckle down and work. On the other hand, it may distract me.

But I just want cuddles, so, yes.


/wobbles away from lj, little less bounce in her step
tonieboo0013: (相葉: reach)
Yesterday was my boss' surprise retirement party. We got another location's staff to work the store in the night, and we all drove up to Char's house to see her one last time. We thought she'd figured it out, but she had no idea.

She cried a bit when we showed up, and she told me after that she wanted to leave it the way it was on Friday; that was her last day. She got off her shift, gave hugs goodbye, and didn't cry until Sarah did, then a few others followed suit. She told me last night that she had said to her husband, I'm so glad Tonya wasn't there... because I would've torn her heart to shreds.

I'm the most sentimental one on staff. Sue me.

So, a little bit into the party, Monica gives Char the scrapbook she made. Oh. My. Jesus. It's gorgeous. She has photos of all the staff, with messages we all wrote to her, and all our little catch phrases, photos of Char from over 20 years ago, KFC everything (some things Monica had kept for years) and just, she did such a good job. I started to cry.

Few minutes later, I'm in the dining room where most everyone is, and I start crying more. Give me two minutes, and Sarah has to hide my face in her chest, trying to rock me and my makeup is all cried off, and I'm just wailing and wailing and wailing. It just hit me, all of a sudden. At that point, Tina decided to have a toast to Char, and I started crying harder, if possible.

Anyway, after that I stopped crying in front of people and went outside for a smoke alone. And cried. Came in and sat in one of the living rooms. And cried. Then Sarah & Marianne found me and brought me vodka jello shots to make me stop crying.

And they worked.

I didn't cry the rest of the night, but everyone kept cuddling with me and asking if I was better now, and I told them yes, because I was. Even by the end of the night, when everyone was having their final goodbyes, I couldn't cry anymore. I even said out loud that I feel bad that I cried at the wrong time, and everyone laughed at me.

Throughout the entire night, whenever I'd latch onto Char and just cuddle her (it happened a lot) she kept telling me that I know where she lives, I have her number, all I have to do is give her a call and she'll make me eggs and bacon and hash browns and listen to me talk about any and everything. That we would have a "Mommy Day".

When I was finally leaving, Char pulled me aside again, and told me I was going places, and she wished I would stay at KFC even after she left, and that she was always, always, always there for me. Anytime.

Char is just such a beautiful person, the best second mother anyone can ask for, and I know she means what she says.

I'm going to miss having her around the store to pick on me, and ask me how school's doing, and be the one sane person in the building.
tonieboo0013: (ニノ: pure)

I was watching the news tonight, and I just broke down and started crying. It took me a while to understand how serious this really is, because I find it difficult to relate to things I haven't experienced myself before.

I can't do much. And I can't donate much. But, every little bit helps.

This is my offer to write fan fiction for [ profile] arashi_on's fundraiser for Japan's current crisis.

I am determined to do whatever I can to help. I don't want to sit around and cry. I want to do something.


Here's to starting the road to recovery a little early.


Feb. 24th, 2011 04:25 am
tonieboo0013: (sakuraiba: this moment)
I just finished watching Diary of a Nymphomaniac, and I'm speechless.

Basically, it's the story of this woman who, since she was 15, has had a craving for sex, and can never get enough. One day, she begins to think she's a nymphomaniac, and needs help. Her grandmother assures her to Never give up anything you enjoy doing, because you'll regret it, and, may I just say, those are some fabulous words.

The movie goes on to show Val, the lead character, going through her first love (at age 29), and running into some serious errors she hadn't expected, then exploring a whole other side to her addiction to sex. I don't want to give out any spoilers, in case anyone ever decides to see it (I saw it on Netflix).

But, the whole film focuses on the questions
What is normal?
How can I be normal?
Why aren't I normal?
Is it wrong to not be normal?

and I found the end result to be inspiring.

Who cares if I decide to do this, or do that? Who cares if the way I live my life isn't the same way you live yours? Who cares if I'm different?

The main thing is, I enjoy my life.

I think this rule should apply to everyone.

If you're not happy with your look, why not? If you feel that way, then fix it.
If you're not happy with your future, try and change it.
If you're not happy with those around you, leave them.
If you're not happy with yourself, look in the mirror and tell yourself why. Then break the mirror.

Whoever you are, that's who you are. Everyone has flaws, so embrace them. If you're still panicking about whatever it may be, take it upon yourself to transform the way you see yourself. Just don't stop believing.

This may be a tad cheesy, but right now I feel incredibly free and liberated and just want to twirl beneath the rain.
tonieboo0013: (matsumiya: gratitude)
Day 1 - 10 Secrets
Day 2 - 9 Loves
Day 3 - 8 Fears
Day 4 - 7 Wants
Day 5 - 6 Places You Want to Go
Day 6 - 5 Foods
Day 7 - 4 Books
Day 8 - 3 Films
Day 9 - 2 Songs
Day 10 - 1 Picture of Yourself


Uhh. Uhh. Paper has yet to be written. Or started. Due in twenty hours. Mother of all...-
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Jan. 16th, 2011 01:55 am
tonieboo0013: (aiba: unsee)

I have a request. I want more gifs.

Use this post to comment using AS MANY GIFS AS YOU WISH. I am in need of Aiba ones (esp. pretty ones).

I just want moar gifs. I am greedy and horrible.


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note: I am using all tags. lmao. yus. if you happen to find this post twenty years down the road... POST MOAR GIFS.
tonieboo0013: (arashi: freedom)


it's permanent )

Call me crazy.
Everyone else has.
And I. Don't. Care. Anymore.


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